Saturday, June 07, 2008
I woke up today and just felt this sadness...it wasn't brought on by anything I just laid in bed and thought that all I wanted to do was just sleep. It was difficult to finally get out of bed and start my day. I was grumpy and I just had this lump in my stomach that wouldn't go away. So the kids got their bathing suits on and went across the street and played in the neighbors pool and I sat here on the computer just wallowing in my sadness. Sad and pathetic i know, I was honestly mad at myself over it. But then I see the name that would bring a huge smile to my face, Lamont signing into yahoo messenger. We talked, I shared how I felt and just like every other time i've been down, he was able to lift me out of it and make me feel better. We got to talk for a good hour and see eachother on the webcam and when all was said and done I was able to shed my tears and move out of the sadness i had been feeling.
I know there will be days like this and although I hate when they hit me, i'm grateful that I can feel better by the end of the day. The kids played all day in the pool and I hung out with the neighbors and was treated to their barbeque. Then I decided to take the kids out to the oceanfront for a Latin festival and was treated to some great music. Afterwards the kids and I just walked the oceanfront and stopped and listened to local artists who had little stands where they sang to us. One of those artists is the lead vocalist at our new church, so we sat and listened to her for awhile. Her voice is truly amazing. All in all it was a good day. I almost felt like I took my kids on a date, and it felt good to just hang out with them. Of course there were parts in the day that were rough, like Bella waking up with a fever and stuffy nose. All she wanted to do was lay around and sleep. So she did that for most of the day. I had to capture the cuteness of her laying next to Kingsley on the couch...just the two of them cuddled up sleeping...