11 years ago I went to the hospital to be induced because my stubborn baby didn't want to come out. Lamont was in Mississippi and was unable to come down so i just had my parents by my side. I was scared, frightened and 17 years old. I didn't know how I was going to take care of this baby, but I knew that I had to figure it out. I was about to become someone's mother. I didn't know if the baby I was about to have was a boy or girl. I secretly prayed for a girl, because being alone I thought that I would be able to raise a girl better. What I got was the most unexpected gift I have ever recieved in my life. After over 10 hours of hard labor, the doctor's decided to take the baby out by c-section. I went into the operating room and about 30 minutes later, they pulled my son out of me. When they announced he was a boy, my only thought was....thank you God. I knew that he was what i was supposed to have, he was perfect. When they brought him around the curtain, I was so amazed at how much he looked like Lamont. I cried and cried at what I had just done. I had brought a little person in this world. I was so terrified over the thought of being able to raise him properly. I knew there would be mistakes, but would they be big enough to damage him? Would not having a father there, be something that would define him? I felt sorry for him, sorry that I had decided at such a young age to become a mother. Sorry that he didn't have a more experienced mother to raise him. But all of that slowly went away when after a couple of hours they brought him to my room and I held him. I knew that with the support of my family, I would be able to do a good job. I knew that with how much I loved him, and how much my family loved him, he would be okay. He would grow up knowing that although he wasn't planned he was wanted, I wanted him, I fought to have him and now 11 years later I couldn't imagine a moment in my life without him. Because of him, his father and I are still together.....Happily together. Because of him we went on to have 3 more children. Because of him, I am the happiest mother I could have ever been. Because of him, his father and I are the people we are today. Because of him....I am who I am. He taught us responsibility, he taught us unconditional love, and he taught us that the best things in life are unexpected. I love you Anthonne, Happy Birthday to the first love of my life.
For some reason it's not letting me post pictures with this, so when I can I will post the pictures I took for his birthday....thanks for stopping by
Thursday, July 13, 2006
One of the things we got to do while Amber was here was to see John Heffron the winner of last years Last Comic Standing performing at The Funny Bone, a comedy club here in Va. Beach. He was pretty funny, but we also enjoyed the act before him, Louis Katz. He was hilarious! Of course his act was a little more "dirty"....lol. Anyway, if you get a chance and they are performing anywhere by you, go check them out! After the show we tried to go meet John and Louis. John was busy with other fans so we sat and chatted with Louis. He made fun of me for not having a myspace page, and we talked till there was no one else left in the club. We never did get to meet John, but we did get out pic taken with Louis! Afterwards we went outside and took some pictures in the "new" downtown Va. Beach....yes the comidians totally made fun of our attempt at a big city...lol.
My friend Amber came to visit all the way from Washington State. This was to be our girl's hanging out trip, unfortunately the first couple of days started off rocky! She came in the night of the 4th and the next day we were all hit with a stomach bug, and for me strep throat! So once that was over we were able to go out and have fun. There were a few things she wanted to do while she was here and I think we were able to do them all. We went to the Cinema Cafe and saw Click, which I thought was really good. We then had a fun little voyeur experience at a Mexican restaurant.....you know what I mean Amber...wink, wink...lol. We got go have a little photoshoot of eachother which was nice since we both have gotten tired of using our tripods to take pics of ourselves! I got to take her out dancing, which was alot of fun especially since she hadn't been out in over 8 months. We went to a comedy show and had a blast there and we ended her stay with her taking my family's pictures at a beach. So it was a pretty busy week, but I had a great time! I hope you did too Amber!!
Saturday, July 08, 2006
Out with the old, in with the new....that's what we decided to do when it came to our living room set. After having 4 kids spill drinks all over it, a new puppy sleep and shed all over it, it was time for new one! So we got a new couch, loveseat and Lamont's favorite..... a new recliner. Doesn't it just fit him right.....lol.